[00:00:37] All by myself: I was reading some chatlogs earlier when we first started speaking. You were much flirtier with me I think.
[00:00:58] i'm buried underneath.: Yeah ..
[00:01:04] i'm buried underneath.: I know i was.
[00:02:21] i'm buried underneath.: But i just don't ...
[00:02:23] i'm buried underneath.: well i dunno.
[00:02:47] i'm buried underneath.: We don't flirt anymore. Because what we have or had whichever - is past that stage
[00:02:59] All by myself: What stage are we in?
[00:03:17] i'm buried underneath.: Er .. i don't know. But i know that the flirtation
[00:03:31] i'm buried underneath.: Is one we are past*
[00:03:37] All by myself: Umm...ok then.
[00:03:42] i'm buried underneath.: Do you not think?
[00:04:46] All by myself: Well I guess I don't really have much of a say in it if you think it is. But I would have thought that flirting is an on going part of a relationship. It's fun. It lets the other perosn know you want them. It can be naughty or just a little boost now and then.
[00:05:18] i'm buried underneath.: But we don't do it at all now.
[00:05:24] i'm buried underneath.: o i jsut thought we were past it.
[00:05:32] i'm buried underneath.: so*
[00:05:52] All by myself: I flirt with you...but not so much back
[00:06:06] i'm buried underneath.: What do you mean?
[00:06:11] All by myself: You don't flirt back
[00:06:34] i'm buried underneath.: Oh
[00:06:42] i'm buried underneath.: I know.
[00:06:45] i'm buried underneath.: But sometimes i do.
[00:07:21] All by myself: You haven't for a while. Which is why it's hard to know if you're still interested in me sometimes.
[00:07:54] i'm buried underneath.: But anyway to be honest i'm not a flirty person.
[00:08:14] All by myself: You were when we first started seeing each other
[00:09:04] i'm buried underneath.: Yeah i know but know i dunno ..
[00:09:07] i'm buried underneath.: now*
[00:10:13] i'm buried underneath.: I don't know why i'm not anymore.
[00:10:38] i'm buried underneath.: I'm going to bed know

[13:14:44] i'm buried underneath.: I hate MSN now.
[13:14:56] i'm buried underneath.: I have no good people anymore.
[13:15:22] Neil: Nice to know I'm appreciated, heh.
[13:15:48] i'm buried underneath.: Yeah well you know what i mean.
[13:16:00] i'm buried underneath.: I mean people who i can talk to all the time about stuff.
[13:16:39] Neil: I thought that's what we had.
[13:17:17] i'm buried underneath.: Not really.
[13:17:26] i'm buried underneath.: We don't speak hardly unless we're arguing.
[13:17:46] Neil: Lately, yes.
[13:18:25] Neil: Things should be better than they are right now.
[13:19:04] i'm buried underneath.: I know.
[13:30:32] Neil: How do you feel about me?
[13:34:41] i'm buried underneath.: What do you mean.
[13:34:59] Neil: Do you even like me?
[13:35:08] i'm buried underneath.: Wy would you say that.
[13:35:43] Neil: Because after reading through some chatlogs of say, three or four months ago, you're a lot less interested in me.
[13:36:58] i'm buried underneath.: I'm not.
[13:37:04] i'm buried underneath.: I just got things on my mind.
[13:37:29] Neil: For the last two months?
[13:37:40] i'm buried underneath.: Yeah things have happened.
[13:38:45] Neil: And you're saying that this is why you're not as interested in me?
[13:39:06] i'm buried underneath.: I haven't even said i'm not interested in you.
[13:39:17] Neil: But you're definitely less interested
[13:39:27] i'm buried underneath.: I said i have had stuff in on my mind ... important stuff.
[13:39:33] i'm buried underneath.: Think what you want.
[13:42:52] Neil: How do you feel about me then? Do you like me as much as you did in April?
[13:46:00] i'm buried underneath.: Yeah of course i do .. i like you more, i've just had stuff going on.
[13:46:42] Neil:

[17:17:09] Neil: I'm ok. But I need a kiss and a cuddle.
[17:17:56] i want to feel the heat.: me too .. come get me!

See, little things like that are what make relationships work. When you let the other person know that they are actually interested and want the other person. But you haven't done any of that for a few weeks now. And if you don't, then just like anyone else, it makes me feel that you're not that bothered anymore.

[13:48:02] i'm buried underneath.: I've had stuff on my mind important stuff .... this is why i haven't been able to focus or pay more attention to you.
[13:49:04] Neil: There will always be important stuff to focus on. There will always be something that needs sorting out. It's life. Unfortunately. There are things that I have to worry about too but I still keep in mind that you're important to me and I try to treat you the best I can and keep trying to make you happy by caring about you.
[13:50:52] i'm buried underneath.: Yeah but i haven't had time to think about myself recently.
[13:53:56] Neil: So are you saying that things will change? That it won't be like this always? That you actually want to be with each other, even though I haven't seen you for over three weeks already and probably won't for at least four?
[13:55:37] i'm buried underneath.: Exactly.
[13:57:02] Neil: How long do I wait?
[13:57:55] i'm buried underneath.: You can't ask me that.
[13:57:58] i'm buried underneath.: As if i know.
[14:02:51] Neil: At the end of this week, I won't have seen you for a month. Don't you think that's a bit crap? And that I've been ready to be with you at every step of the last four weeks, yet you haven't been ready to be with me? The last time I seen you was when I came to yours. The last time before that was two weeks prior.
[14:03:45] Neil: A month is such a long time to be away from someone who you're supposed to be seeing.
[14:05:18] i'm buried underneath.: I know. But stuff has happened.
[14:05:23] i'm buried underneath.: So it can;t be helped.
[14:05:42] Neil: So I just keep waiting?
[14:06:13] i'm buried underneath.: No don't wait ... do what you want.
[14:10:05] Neil: Sigh. You make it so hard to be with each other. But I like you, regardless of the fact that you show less and less interest in me as the weeks go on without seeing you. But with every week that goes by and you say you can't see me, we go from having a relationship to one off dates and one off nights together. I don't want that. I want us to see each other every week.
[14:13:11] Neil: Sigh. I have to go for a bit. I need to go the post office. Just please think about what you're doing to 'us'.
[14:13:14] * Neil is now Away
[14:22:50] i'm buried underneath.: Ok i'm sorry.
[14:22:50] i'm buried underneath.: x

I've ran out of things to say about these chats.