I started talking to a guy called Kev via a chat room and then we started talking on MSN. I told him about how I wasn't exactly surrounded by friends, and he very very kindly said that he'd introduce me to his.
So, I went to town to meet him, and his friends and it was a very strange experience, since I've never done that before. Met someone off the Internet after only known them for around 3/4 days. It was very strange. I met Kev at the train station, but I was a bit late.
At Kirkby station, as I was walking through, a group of lads passed me. They were talking to each other as I passed them and one of them looked at me and said "eeee", with a very strange tone of voice. It was a tone a voice that suggested he was freaked out by the fact that I had my star necklace on I think. I found it quite ironic, that he should think my dress sense is weird, when he's the one wearing the same as what all of his mates were wearing, ie, a tracksuit and trainers, no doubt all LeCoste. Because I choose to be different, I am to be criticised for it? I think only in Liverpool is this so true.
Me and Kev went the Court to meet his friends. When we got there, there were LOADS of people. At least 50-75. All in their various groups, talking to each other. I thought Kirsty might of been there, and I was looking around for her but she wasn't there. I then looked round to see if I knew anyone else there and I noticed Paul and someone else, but I don't know their name. Aside from that, the rest were unknown to me. I felt very intimidated at that point. I think it was because everyone seemed to know each other, yet I didn't know anyone there.
Kev seen his mates and he introduced me to them. I can't even remember their names. The only one name I can remember is 'Topping', real name Tony. They were all nice. Tony was slightly mad, but in a good way, if there is such a thing. They all talked and I tried to look as comfortable as possible even though inside I was feeling like I wanted to go home. Having said that though, I'd taken two Kalm tablets before I came out and they REALLY help calm me down, so I wasn't too bad.
As in any social situation, I didn't really say much. I wanted to, but I had no idea what to say, so for the most part, I kept quiet. Unfortunately, I didn't spend that much time with them because they went home after about 40 minutes, so I walked the station with them and said goodbye to Kev and came home.
I hope I see them again, because even though I didn't really talk to them, they seem like nice people and I'd like to get to know them better, along with Kev. Maybe it'll help me get over this socialising anxiety I always feel as well. Couple that with the fact that college starts on Monday and I'll be hanging round Kirsty and that again and no doubt going the court with her, i'm hoping that all of this will help me. I hope anyway.
I bought Russell Watson - Encore, and Elton John - Songs From The West Coast from Virgin while I was walking back from Lime Street station to Central. Elton John's one isn't really to my liking, but Russell Watson's is brilliant. It's got 16 songs on, but it seems so short, because you don't want it to end. The theme to Star Trek: Enterprise - the new Star Trek series is on there too, and I really like that.
It ties in nicely, with the fact that Star Trek: Enterprise starts on Sky One on Monday at 8pm, so of course, I will definitly be watching that.
This entry is a big contrast to the entry I made on the 4th, I know, but then, that describes how I can feel perfectly. Most of the time, I feel depressed, lonely, angry, and basically not good, but days like today lift my spirits just enough to bring me out of all of that and feel ok for just a day. It's those days that I appreciate, and it's the people who make them happen who I appreciate to.
Thankyou to those special people who make a difference to my life. I hope you know who you are.
WOO! I got NAKED REVIEWED! <-- Click that silly.
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