I'm not that bothered though to be honest. If i'm to be in when on New Year's Eve, then it won't be any different to any other New Year's Eve, and I won't feel like I've missed out on anything.
Laura and Claire went out last night to some clubs in town. They got back around 1am, and Laura brought a guy home with her. He sounded at least 18 from his voice. Laura, Claire and him sat downstairs and talked (and god knows what else) for about 2 hours, and then he left and they talked to my mum in her room for about an hour. It made me think of how lifeless I am compared to those two. The fact that they have a social life.
Having said that though, as I've said in the past, drinking and dancing really don't appeal to me, so I guess that's why I've never got into anything like they have. Having said that, though, I think that's because I've not socialised much in the past, and only now, because I am in college, with a new group of people am I finally beginning to socialise properly. Maybe this time next year, I'll be a really chatty person, who loves to dance and go to clubs everynight. Alternatively, I could well be the same person as I am now, but with just those extra social skills, and in having them, I'll be able to form new friendships, possibly something more intimate and be able to have a group of friends that I can go places with, albeit dancing, pictures or just hang around with them and have a laugh.
Someday, I hope a combination of the above will be available to me. I'm trying to achieve it, and I hope that i'm on the right tracks to finding it.
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