I didn't go to college again, of course.
Earlier on, I talked to my mum about it. I told her that I didn't feel like I belonged there, because I didn't have anyone to socialise with. They're just on another level from me. She agreed with me and said she understood why I didn't want to be there. Neither us know what to do.
On one hand I could stay on for the next year and a half and possibly get the qualification the course offers, but in doing so be surrounded by people who I don't want to be around.
On the other hand, I could quit this course and not have the pressure of having to go in every day. I could possibly start another course in September and hope that I found someone interesting there.
Of course, there's no guarantee that I would find people. I could just go from one bad lot to the next. However, surely no one can be worse than that class? I mean, some of them are quite immature to say the least.
I talked to Claire about it on the phone, saying all of the above. She didn't have any suggestions either.
My choices are go to college or stay at home. I need a third choice to find friends. I know you're screaming at me "Get a job!", but then we go into another discussion about what job and would they really take me on if I don't have any qualifications? Also, would I really find people my age in an adult filled enviroment?
Claire suggested I go the friend shop. If only I could!
Chances are I won't go into college tommorrow either, and I've a very very big feeling that if I don't, I'll be off the course once and for all. I think Anna will have had enough of me being off and want a final decision as to whether I want to be there or not, and I honestly don't know no more.
Qualification = College + Friendless + 2 Boring Years
Quitting = No college + Friendless + Stay At Home
Notice the thing that they both have in common? I stay friendless no matter what I do. Great huh?
Someone please me give me another SUGGESTION. It is urgently needed.
